As I reflect upon my recent travels, what immediately comes to mind is a picture I cannot shake off! It was our last day in Kurdistan. We were on our way for our last meeting in Erbil. The traffic was heavy. All of a sudden a car pulled up beside us at the traffic light and we heard screaming from that vehicle. It was a small pickup and everyone inside was weeping or sobbing, especially a woman who was clearly hysterical, smiting her forehead and her chest screaming in despair. Her husband (we presume) was trying his best to contain her. We didn’t know what to do until someone in our car said she must have just received news of someone’s death in her family. We reached out to them with a bottle of water, and somebody from their car took it and started to splash some of the water on the distraught woman. Continue reading
Love is a raging beast. Like a lion, it seeks that which will satisfy it. Love lies in wait and preys upon the other creatures as they feed. But even they all can’t satisfy Love. Infatuation and Obsession stand afar off, reminiscing about the past and fondly sharing stories of great conquests. Their very presence repel Love. And most nights, Love goes to bed hungry.
Love is a hungry creature. Love growls as the hunger pangs hit it over and over again. How will it survive this evening? It has been so hungry for long now. If only it could find something satisfying. But one so pure can’t feed off impure creatures. They can never bring satisfaction.
Love is like a noble Prince who leaves his homeland in search of a Princess worthy to be called his Queen. He battles unfavorable conditions – the cold nights, the afternoons when the sun smiles brightest and the thieves that always lie in wait for unsuspecting travellers. But the Prince is resolute. He’ll never stop until he finds her.
Love would cross a thousand seas and weather a million storms until it finds true satisfaction. But what would ever satisfy Love? What could possibly put an everlasting smile on Love’s face?
The truth remains that the only thing that can ever satisfy Love is Love. Love was never meant to go unrequited. The best response to Love is Love. Yes, Love will be patient, kind, true, selfless and noble even when it is not returned. But imagine what will happen when Love finally gets Love.
That’s what Easter is all about. Love gave all to get Love. Nothing will ever satisfy that Love except our response of Love. Don’t ever forget: God created us to give Love. But we must first respond to Calvary’s Love. Only then can we love as He wants us to. Easter is all about Love.
I smile as I hear Your voice
through the noisy crowd
Oh, how I’ve waited to hear
you call out my name today
Today is one of those days,
days when I feel lost and confused
The thunder crashes over me and
I shudder out of fear
Slowly you approach me, with
a smile that says a million words
And I count the seconds till you get here,
my heartbeat racing at your presence
I smile as I remember all
the good times we’ve had together
You never let me face any storm alone
You always find a way to get through to me
A tear escapes my eyes as I feel
you wrap your arms around me
“It’s okay,” you say reassuringly
I mumble as the tears flow freely
I wonder what makes you come back
I’ve never been there for you
I’ve never done anything for you
Tell me, “What keeps you coming?”
At first, I didn’t believe you
I couldn’t believe that you could love me,
definitely not the way you say it
Nobody could ever love like that
Gently you tugged at my heart
You showed me depths that I never
knew could exist in love
You lost yourself totally with me
In loving me, you broke every wall
and brought down every defence that
I have ever put up to guard my heart
Now I’m left defenceless and helpless
I look into your eyes and realize that
I am already in love with you
You smile and I wonder if you knew
“Does he know?” I ask myself
You simply smile and I bask in the peace
and joy that that smile always brings
The thunder doesn’t sound so threatening now
It lost its strength the moment you showed up
I feel like you need to know that I love you
“I love you,” I say with my eyes locked on yours
You just keep on smiling and I wonder
if I had said it properly or correctly
“I know,” you say, as you squeeze my
hand so lovingly and reassuringly
Somehow I know that I love you
because you first loved me
I’m incapable of loving like you
Please teach me how to love you
I’m weak, with all these fears and
frailties that make me stink
I long to love you without bonds
and withholding nothing
I lean for another hug and I know
that we’re gonna be alright
My lover is mine, and I am his.
Songs of Songs 2:16
I want more than these
broken pieces that you offer
I know that these pieces are part
of a once-upon-a-time whole heart
I want more than these fragments
that you shove into my face
I don’t need this piecemeal heart
I need more than just random parts
I feel your pains and would
love to kiss those wounds
But I can’t kiss them when you hide
them out of fear and mistrust
I want you step out of the shadows
and leave your fear behind
Take a leap of faith and hold
this bloody, outstretched arm
I want you to let go of the pieces
that you still hold on to,
Those pieces that make you cry every
time you remember his betrayal
I want you to trust me and give me
every single piece of what’s left,
From the biggest shard to the minutest
splinter of that shattered heart
You can love again, and
you must love again
You can smile as you used to
and be happy once more
But you must move past
the hurt and the pain
You must learn to forget,
darling, and grasp this one offer
Imagine waking up with me
on a bright morning
With smiles and laughter,
not this tear-streaked face
I promise to give you everything
that you have ever dreamed of
Your craziest dreams and wildest
imaginations will finally become real
But you must give me all of you,
nothing else will satisfy me
I want more than what’s left of you,
I also long for what is yet to be
I want nothing but you, with
all your flaws and imperfection
Don’t hide anything, no, don’t photoshop
the fact that you were once a beauty
Come as you are, baby, don’t
try to make yourself prettier
Come with the tear-streaked face and
the broken pieces of that heart
But you must come with all,
don’t keep anything back
No secrets, no lies, no hidden
skeletons lurking in the closet
I love you and I want you to
love me with all that you are
Step out of the shadows with all of
you because nothing less would suffice
I promise to remain true
till the end of time
I’m in this for life and I promise
to love you till forever comes
©Eleazar Maduka, 2016
Sleep on, o beautiful One
Embrace oblivion and hold onto dreams
Go deeper into the darkest depths of the sea
And enjoy the scenery that no man sees Continue reading
I’m sorry I cheated on you
It was a cold night, one that I never wish to remember
The darkness had loomed over me for so long,
And I had no strength to fight any more Continue reading
What happened to us?
Can you remember the first time we met?
You used to describe that moment as “butterflies and fireworks”
It was love at first sight; the script had been written and the stage had been set.
Surely you can still remember the day after that,
You’d searched for me; you ran like a deer panting after water.
And when you’d found me, all you could do was stare; words disappeared from your lips and were spoken through your eyes and your smile.
It was love in its purest form, unadulterated and true.
What happened to us?
I remember that it wasn’t a time of plenty,
I remember how you went after me in the wilderness, in a land that was not sown, a dry and weary land.
With a dry throat and parched lips you sought after me,
You pursued with such ferocity and passion! And I satisfied you each time you came.
Can you remember how the whole town was against us?
Even your parents hated me and begged you to see reason in letting me go.
“I am my beloved’s and He is mine,” you’d said.
You were resolute and your heart was fixed – we were going to last forever.
I still recall those days with a tear in my eye,
I can’t talk about those days without feeling a pain so severe in my heart.
What happened to us? And how did we get here?
You suddenly wanted to leave my presence almost immediately after you came,
And whenever I asked why you were always in such a hurry, you’d smile and say that you had school work and had to visit friends who were so dear.
Everything became hazy after that time
I tried so hard to get you back, but was unable to
Tonight, I send another plea to you
With a heart that will beat just for you until forever comes
Please, come back
Oh, how I love you so