We Must Stand – GOD Wills It!


I was told the other day that my brother,
One with whom my very soul was knit with,
Had been struck down by a torrential rainstorm –
One of bullets that had been created by old sweats

Then I was told of countless other brothers,
Innocent, young and extremely ambitious men,
That had fallen by the wayside, beaten and broken
I call them brothers because they are human

They had been inordinately desirous of power;
Promises of a better world serving as a drug,
Diurnally got them to a state of stupendous high –
They are brothers, nonetheless, and they are men

The hearts of our mothers beat wildly each morning;
“I`m off to school,” sounds like, “Goodbye, mama”
Our fathers can only smile after everyone returns home;
“When will this end?” they wonder, “How will this end?”

But we must summon courage and pick up arms
Else the next spilled blood might be on our doormats
We are soldiers and we must act like ruthless ones
We must unsheathe our swords – God wills it!

We don`t need guns – we have swords, shields,
Breastplates, helmets, belts and the Gospel
The clock ticks with the passing of every second
And our adversary advances, breaking our very ranks

Peter was in chains when his brothers prayed all night
Paul continually offered up prayers for all the saints
Dear believer, can we lose sleep in a time like this?
We must stand like brothers – God wills it!

© Eleazar Maduka, 2017


A Blessing in Disguise


I wish you would sleep an eternal sleep
And breathe the venomous air of Hell,
That your skin would change its color from
That lucent lustre to a hue of despair

I wish that your name be forever erased
From the sands of time and that the memory
Of you be expunged from the hearts of men,
An atemporal exertion of the Creator’s might

Your name alone reminds me of the days
Of my captivity, days when I waited on the
Beast for the means of my livelihood
All he had to do was wish and I obeyed

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I Slept With Tamar

Crying Man

I remember the first day she smiled at me
She had tied my heart with strong reins
And I became a willful captive, bound by
The simple thought of my mistress

Her voice became my very bread, I
Would wake up everyday hoping to hear
The voice that made me come alive inside,
The words that could set me on fire

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Good Night

This short piece is dedicated to the four soldiers that I’ve lost in 2017. They were friends, they were family. I know that soldiers never die. And I know that you’re only sleeping.

Don’t say that you understand how I feel
When you’ve never treaded these paths
That stink of rotten eggs and are filled with broken
Shells that look like my shattered heart

Don’t say that the pain will go
When I’ve been here for years, hoping,
Looking everyday for a glimpse of the sun
That you say shines in your own world

Don’t smile at me with your mouth wide open
Your teeth remind me of who I used to be
Happy, joyful and full of life, all of which
Ceased one day, in the wink of an eye

Don’t assume that you know just how much
Pain lurk deep within my heart
My heart holds nothing but bitterness,
Not an iota of faith lies there

Don’t assume that you know how I feel
You’ve never been here, so don’t act like
You’ve weathered a storm like mine,
Say that you have no idea of how this feels

Don’t act like you know that all will be well
I see the fear in your eyes as you hold my
Hand and tell me that all will be well
I wish you believed your own words

Don’t hide the fact that I’m dying
I feel my organs getting weaker and weaker
I see my skin change from beautiful to ugly
I also see your eyes swelling with each passing day

Don’t blame me for losing faith,
But I’ve stayed here for so long that I don’t
Think the word has any use here again
Oh, how I long for this pain to cease

Don’t act so strong and lie to yourself that
You’ll be fine after I’m gone
You’ll flunk that test, you’ll hate food
You’ll cry till you get weak from crying

I long to believe that the pain can cease,
But I can’t, not when it has persisted for this long,
Not when I’ve stayed here for years,
Not when I feel this life slowly dissipate

But then I wonder, is that all?
Does everything end here?
Is there nothing after now?
What awaits me at the end?

I remember the stories of Heaven,
Where GOD’s beloved go after dying
And also of Hell, where the fire is
A raging inferno that never dies

Dear Lord, take me now, I’m ready
End this pain and draw me to Yourself
Sometimes death is all that can end pain
In dying, You’re setting me free

© Eleazar Maduka, 2017

Lovers Forever

I smile as I hear Your voice
through the noisy crowd
Oh, how I’ve waited to hear
you call out my name today

Today is one of those days,
days when I feel lost and confused
The thunder crashes over me and
I shudder out of fear

Slowly you approach me, with
a smile that says a million words
And I count the seconds till you get here,
my heartbeat racing at your presence

I smile as I remember all
the good times we’ve had together
You never let me face any storm alone
You always find a way to get through to me

A tear escapes my eyes as I feel
you wrap your arms around me
“It’s okay,” you say reassuringly
I mumble as the tears flow freely

I wonder what makes you come back
I’ve never been there for you
I’ve never done anything for you
Tell me, “What keeps you coming?”

At first, I didn’t believe you
I couldn’t believe that you could love me,
definitely not the way you say it
Nobody could ever love like that

Gently you tugged at my heart
You showed me depths that I never
knew could exist in love
You lost yourself totally with me

In loving me, you broke every wall
and brought down every defence that
I have ever put up to guard my heart
Now I’m left defenceless and helpless

I look into your eyes and realize that
I am already in love with you
You smile and I wonder if you knew
“Does he know?” I ask myself

You simply smile and I bask in the peace
and joy that that smile always brings
The thunder doesn’t sound so threatening now
It lost its strength the moment you showed up

I feel like you need to know that I love you
“I love you,” I say with my eyes locked on yours
You just keep on smiling and I wonder
if I had said it properly or correctly

“I know,” you say, as you squeeze my
hand so lovingly and reassuringly
Somehow I know that I love you
because you first loved me

I’m incapable of loving like you
Please teach me how to love you
I’m weak, with all these fears and
frailties that make me stink

I long to love you without bonds
and withholding nothing
I lean for another hug and I know
that we’re gonna be alright

My lover is mine, and I am his.
Songs of Songs 2:16


I want more than these
broken pieces that you offer
I know that these pieces are part
of a once-upon-a-time whole heart

I want more than these fragments
that you shove into my face
I don’t need this piecemeal heart
I need more than just random parts

I feel your pains and would
love to kiss those wounds
But I can’t kiss them when you hide
them out of fear and mistrust

I want you step out of the shadows
and leave your fear behind
Take a leap of faith and hold
this bloody, outstretched arm

I want you to let go of the pieces
that you still hold on to,
Those pieces that make you cry every
time you remember his betrayal

I want you to trust me and give me
every single piece of what’s left,
From the biggest shard to the minutest
splinter of that shattered heart

You can love again, and
you must love again
You can smile as you used to
and be happy once more

But you must move past
the hurt and the pain
You must learn to forget,
darling, and grasp this one offer

Imagine waking up with me
on a bright morning
With smiles and laughter,
not this tear-streaked face

I promise to give you everything
that you have ever dreamed of
Your craziest dreams and wildest
imaginations will finally become real

But you must give me all of you,
nothing else will satisfy me
I want more than what’s left of you,
I also long for what is yet to be

I want nothing but you, with
all your flaws and imperfection
Don’t hide anything, no, don’t photoshop
the fact that you were once a beauty

Come as you are, baby, don’t
try to make yourself prettier
Come with the tear-streaked face and
the broken pieces of that heart

But you must come with all,
don’t keep anything back
No secrets, no lies, no hidden
skeletons lurking in the closet

I love you and I want you to
love me with all that you are
Step out of the shadows with all of
you because nothing less would suffice

I promise to remain true
till the end of time
I’m in this for life and I promise
to love you till forever comes

©Eleazar Maduka, 2016